People change. For the good, for the bad, and for the nothing at all.
As the halfway mark in my college career has come to a close, I have realized that a lot has changed. That I have changed. From a girl who was terrified to speak in class to someone who is chasing her dreams. a lot has changed. I realized the second I got home a few weeks ago that my room was reminiscent of the times I have had over the last 5 years. Whether it be little trinkets or photos on the wall, I found myself trying to hold on to whatever piece of my past I could find. I discovered that no matter how much I have changed, I still want to cling to the things that I know. The things that make me feel safe. The memories I know were good and the people who were there with me for them. However, I also realized that that is a luxury I can no longer afford. No longer should I live in the little moments of the past & no longer should I dwell on the mistakes that probably followed them. and you know what? I don't want to. As I brace myself for the long journey ahead of me in just a few short days, I have come to know that far better things lie ahead than what lies behind. So I switched out the old pictures for new ones and I put my little trinkets in safe keeping. I traded in my lifeguard swimsuit for a passport and am ready to take on the summer. I really don't know where God will take me in my next 20 years, but I know that I love where he has taken me so far. However, I can't live there. The past is a great learning tool and a great story to tell, but it isn't my home and nor will it ever be. I have the greatest adventure ahead of me and I could not be more excited to face it head on. I hope one day each of you sees your adventure and loves it the same way I do. with your entire heart and soul. I have made many mistakes in 20 years of being alive, but I refuse to make the mistake of missing out on a life of pure and utter joy. My days may be hard, they may even suck, but I am positive that the good ones, the great ones, will out number the bad. I have given up on trying to plan each day and each moment so that I know where I'm headed. I don't want to know. I just want to see the wonderful earth that God has planted firmly beneath my feet & in 2 days that is exactly what I will do. so say a prayer, let out a laugh, and pack your bags. because this summer might just change your life, I know it will change mine.
As the halfway mark in my college career has come to a close, I have realized that a lot has changed. That I have changed. From a girl who was terrified to speak in class to someone who is chasing her dreams. a lot has changed. I realized the second I got home a few weeks ago that my room was reminiscent of the times I have had over the last 5 years. Whether it be little trinkets or photos on the wall, I found myself trying to hold on to whatever piece of my past I could find. I discovered that no matter how much I have changed, I still want to cling to the things that I know. The things that make me feel safe. The memories I know were good and the people who were there with me for them. However, I also realized that that is a luxury I can no longer afford. No longer should I live in the little moments of the past & no longer should I dwell on the mistakes that probably followed them. and you know what? I don't want to. As I brace myself for the long journey ahead of me in just a few short days, I have come to know that far better things lie ahead than what lies behind. So I switched out the old pictures for new ones and I put my little trinkets in safe keeping. I traded in my lifeguard swimsuit for a passport and am ready to take on the summer. I really don't know where God will take me in my next 20 years, but I know that I love where he has taken me so far. However, I can't live there. The past is a great learning tool and a great story to tell, but it isn't my home and nor will it ever be. I have the greatest adventure ahead of me and I could not be more excited to face it head on. I hope one day each of you sees your adventure and loves it the same way I do. with your entire heart and soul. I have made many mistakes in 20 years of being alive, but I refuse to make the mistake of missing out on a life of pure and utter joy. My days may be hard, they may even suck, but I am positive that the good ones, the great ones, will out number the bad. I have given up on trying to plan each day and each moment so that I know where I'm headed. I don't want to know. I just want to see the wonderful earth that God has planted firmly beneath my feet & in 2 days that is exactly what I will do. so say a prayer, let out a laugh, and pack your bags. because this summer might just change your life, I know it will change mine.
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