August is Over

so this post was inspired by the song August is Over by We the Kings. i think the song is about how summer was great but there is much more to look forward to in the season to come. which i must say is very true. however, getting out of the summer state of mind is a very hard thing to do. the pool closes in a week and that is most of my summer memories. it's going to feel extremely weird not to have a bathing suit in my car all the time or be able to run around in cut offs and a tank top on the weekends. now don't get me wrong, i absolutely love the winter..i just don't take to change very well. well actually that is an understatement. and right about now it is not doing me any good whatsoever. with college apps, AP classes and a social life that is always on the forefront of my mind. it's hard to take sudden change well. recently i've been thinking a lot about the past. being a senior it's a pretty easy thing to do in the middle of class. i remember 7th grade..yeah that's a whole other post in itself. freshman year was the make or break point probably, then junior year well it was a whirlwind. i think back to all the people who were there. the ones who left my side when things were scary, when they got weak, or they were just bored. i also think of the ones who never left. yeah they are the ones i still care about. its hard to imagine that in one short year i will be in a totally different environment with completely new people. that probably scares me most. i'm used to my own little world that it's going to be wicked difficult when reality hits. i dunno, i just feel like everything is so different now and it's going to continue to be that way, that i really don't know how to take it. i miss the good ole days when i couldn't drive places and i was carefree because i had no stress or worries. i just miss it all. i know we aren't supposed to live in the past, and honestly that isn't what i want to do, it's just..i want to make sure i never forget it because it made me who i am now. i'm just....... confuesdlostannoyedwishingneedinglovingcaringbrokennotalonelovedcaredforneverforsakenHis. yeah God will always take care of me, and i couldn't be more excited about it and the future He holds for me. i may be a lot of things but one thing I will always be is a follower of Christ. and trust me, He works. i know from experience. that's for sure.


peace & love
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