the view tonight was great. it consisted of a city skyline and the moon. all in one. I guess this is really the first night I realized that I am no longer looking at the moon through my own back window. I've got a different view on things now. and I'm not just talking about the sky. starting all over isn't as hard as I thought, I mean, I did it with my best friends, so honestly it's like the only thing that changed was my address. I don't regret coming here at all. I love it! I just hope, that well, there will be more. or maybe what I want is for me to be more. I want adventure, I want something to remember, I don't want to go through life doing whatever is easy or expected just because everyone else is. my problem though, is that I'm too afraid. I mean really, college is all about "finding yourself" and "branching out to meet new people" perhaps I do need to find myself..find the person that's really been there all along. someone who isn't afraid of the "dark", the unknown, and to put it in better terms: what's different. I'd much rather go through life doing something once and realizing I'm never going to do it again, than to never try. ya know? it's times like these that I would normally say I want to escape, but I don't. I want to stay right here. my own personal adventure land (if I may say so). filled with the opportunity to change a life, or keep it the same as it has always been. so the question for tonight is this: What are you going to do that you never thought you would? something life changing? something stupid? I'd hope not the latter, but to each his own I guess. as for me, I think I'll do something life changing, follow the path before me, even when it gets dark, because the person that put me here, will never leave me. He said so himself.
peace & love
